Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Graduate School Applications Detour: Complete!

 So I didn't make my original resolution for last year.  That's fine.  As far as I'm concerned, I still wrote 30,000 words I might not have written otherwise.  It may be 2013, but I'm going to keep pushing through... and contemplate a new name for this blog...

I've got to apologize--mostly to myself--for not writing much lately.  I believe I mentioned this in a previous post, but I was worried my writing would come to a halt if I figured out graduate school.  Well, I think I did.  I hope.  This came a week and a half into November, so I never got far past 15,000 words for the month.  Some of my application deadlines were December 1st, so I had a very short span of time to research the professors I wanted to work with and which universities looked promising, update my resume, get transcripts, secure letters of recommendations, write a statement of purpose, yadda yadda yadda.  I've applied to eight schools now, I believe.  It's disappointing because I really REALLY wanted to finish NaNo, but if I missed the chance to go to graduate school once I knew what I wanted to do, that would have been entirely stupid on my part.  I need to move past this limbo I've fallen into.  And so, no writing.

I'm back though.  I'm hoping I'll have more time to write, now.  I will be facing potential interviews for grad school; I already know I've got one at the end of this month and my advisers anticipate I'll have at least a few more, but most schools are just now starting to look at applications.  I'm hoping the traveling for them won't be too disruptive.

My plan, now, is to try to hit 1,000 words a day.  That shouldn't be too hard.  It's less than the 1,667 I needed each day in November, and I hit at least 2,000 words most days I did write.  I'm  hoping that will be manageable.

Today I read through what I've already done.  I'd lost track of what I wrote in November.  It was a little surreal reading those passages because I felt like I hadn't been the one to write them.  I barely remember it.  That gave me the unique opportunity to read what I did through a different lens.  It's often hard to read my work the way someone else would.  I tend to get caught up in seeing 'behind the curtain.'  I might remember what I'd been thinking at the time, including any hesitations I'd had with a section, or else I can't shake the impulse to find the problems.  It's pretty distracting, but that didn't happen this time.  I suppose it's because I didn't get linger on anything for long, because I had to keep going.  Anyway, the point of this is that I enjoyed reading it this way.  That's very encouraging, considering I'm hoping other people will enjoy it, too!  I'll have to keep writing like this, if only to read it the way others would later.

I am now caught back up on where I was, and I wrote a little today at my writing group.  Between what I wrote after my last post here and what I wrote today(not much, I hope to write more tomorrow), I've tacked on an additional 5,000 words.  That feels pretty good.  It puts me past a third of my final word count goal.  It may still take a while longer for me to get acquainted with some of my future plans, but I don't think that should delay me much.

Total Word Count: 32,823 (36.5% of final goal, approx 93.8 pages)

Friday, November 9, 2012

Day 8 of NaNoWriMo

I am eight days into NaNoWriMo.  On the days when I have seriously put an effort into writing, I managed to put down about 2,000 words.  Unfortunately, there were a couple days when I could not shake a head ache.  I have learned the hard way not to mess with headaches, so I tried not to look at any screens for a while.  Unfortunately, that meant getting about 3,600 words behind.  The good news is that I am close to catching back up.  As of right now, I am only 1,600 words away from where I should be.  I feel pretty confident that I can keep up.

I am happy with how I am doing so far.  I didn't really have any expectations going into this.  I hadn't expected things would go perfectly, and had doubts whether I would finish.  Now that I am at least a week into this, I know that 50,000 words is entirely doable for me.  However, I think my feet will be dragging by the end.  Writing around 2,000 words a day gets tiring, especially when you aren't always sure what to write about... which I don't.  I usually spend a good fifteen minutes staring at the screen at the beginning of the day thinking "What can I write about?" because I'm simply stumped.  Jordan wonders if having started writing this ahead of time may have made this harder for me now, as at first I had no shortage of ideas.  He may be right, but I think this may be partially due to poor planning on my part.  The good news is that finding the time to write has not been as much as an issue as I had expected.

Although this is not my first large writing project, this one writes differently than anything else I've done.  It may explain why I am having some trouble thinking of what to write.  For a span of two months while I was in college, I would feel bombarded with ideas while I went to class, and then it would be no problem for me to write out around 2,500 words without breaks.  I don't have that this time, and I think that is because this story is really much more complicated than anything else I've attempted before.

I do think I can do this, but I anticipate that I'm going to be exhausted by the end.  Hopefully I'll still have enough in me to write another 22,000 or so in December, so that I can reach 90,000 words by the end of the year, as was my initial plan.

No new beads for my bracelet, sadly.  I tend to get distracted when I go to write-ins, so I've avoided going.  I'll be going to one this Sunday, hopefully, so I can pick up any that I've earned in the past few days.

NaNo Wordcount: 10,875 (21.8% of NaNo goal)
Total Wordcount: 28,175 (31.3% of goal... 80ish pages )

Friday, November 2, 2012

Days 1 and 2 of NaNo

I'm excited to be able to report here after my first two days of NaNo that I have successfully passed my 1,667 word goal.  I was going to start writing right at midnight on the 1st until I wrote a couple thousand.  In theory it was a good idea.  In practice... not so much.  My mind was a little sluggish, so I wasn't moving along very well.  I broke 1,000 words after about an hour and twenty minutes and called it a night.  I didn't want to feel dead at work the next day.

My strategy has since been to wake up early to do my first writing before my day starts.  That way I can get a good chunk of the daily word count out of the way early.  I figure that if I were to choose to write in the evenings alone and I didn't make my daily goal for whatever reason, I'd be behind.

One problem I found:  since I haven't been sure what to do with Allie's life, I've jumped around a lot.  I still don't know what to put in some of the gaps I've made, and it makes it challenging when I'm looking for something to write.  If I were to decide to work on a scene I hadn't finished, I'd have to figure out where the hell it is.  It's time I'd rather not waste.  I was actually going to write about how I needed a new program for writing to solve this.  I needed a way to chunk my chapters into individual mini-documents so I can rearrange things and find the scenes I need more easily.  Just as importantly, I needed to be able to access it anywhere I have the internet.  I've been using Google Drive (formerly Google Docs) and I can access that anywhere, but organization for my novel sucks on it.

What happened today can only be described as fate.  (Okay, melodramatic.)  I went to the first NaNo write-in at a cafe in town and the owners of a writing program showed up.  Evidently they created the program that our municipal liaison (ML), Michelle, uses and swears by, and they just happened to move from Florida to good ole' Bloomington.  They pop in quickly to say 'Hi' and then our ML explained their writing software to me.  It was exactly what I was looking for.  And it saves old versions of my novel in case I accidentally delete it.  It might be a little annoying transferring everything over, but I'm very excited to check it out.  It is called Yarny.  (https://yarny.me/).  I'll be testing it out this weekend.

I also got to start my NaNo charm bracelet today, which we can fill with beads at our write-ins.  Our ML started this so we can have a tangible reminder of our progress.  We get one regular bead for every 1,667 words we write, and we get a charm for hitting special landmarks, in general or on time.  I've got pictures of my bracelet so far.  It looks kind of empty now, but keep reading my blog and you'll see it fill up!  The word bead was for hitting 1,667 words on the first day.  Technically we were only supposed to take one unless we needed an -ly at the end of a word, or something similar.  Well.... I saw 'make' and 'believe' and I had to get them both.  Then I realized that there was another word if you flip it over, and...


Fate!  Sort of.  'Always learn' isn't as fitting for NaNo, but more likely than not it should have been gibberish.  It's not a bad thing to remember, either.

I am going to another write-in for about an hour tomorrow before meeting up with a friend or two from out of town.  Hopefully I can get a lot of writing before they come so I can get further ahead.  I wouldn't mind a couple thousand words of cushion.

Total word count: 21,187 (23.5% of final goal, 60 or so pages)
Total NaNoWriMo count: 3,872 (7.7% of NaNo goal, 1,936 words per day average)

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Here we go!

It's the eve of NaNoWriMo!  I have put a widget on the sidebar where anyone can keep up with how I'm doing on my word count.  On top of keeping tabs on my overall word score, it will also mark every day whether I reach 1,667 words (green) or not (red) as well as if I did exceptionally well (dark green) or poorly (dark red).  I do anticipate a few dark red days.  I may try to take a day off here and there if I am doing well enough with my word count.  We'll see.  Either way, I was hesitant to include the calendar because I know if I fail epically it will be broadcasted to everyone!  On the other hand, keeping everyone else from seeing me fail may be another incentive to write.  I will start writing tonight at midnight, so hopefully if you check the calendar on this blog sometime tomorrow, you'll see one little green box.  Maybe I'll try to see how many words it takes to get a dark green box.

As I mentally prepared myself this evening to start what I fully anticipate to be an insane month, I sat by a bowl of candy for my first ever Trick or Treaters and watched The Hurricane, the movie based on Rubin Carter going to prison for three murders he did not commit.  I picked it because it is the only movie my boyfriend and I own that I had never seen.  I'm surprised I hadn't, really.  It depicts his relationship with a boy, Lesra, who read and was inspired by the book Rubin wrote in prison.  When they finally meet in person, Rubin starts talking about the magic of writing to the boy who is newly literate.  I really couldn't have picked a better movie to watch tonight, for that scene on its own.

And then there is also the link between the movie's title and a certain force of destruction that has been terrorizing the east coast.

The NaNo group held a kick-off party on Monday at a martini bar in town.  I'm always up for a reason to splurge on a cocktail, but I really enjoyed the event.  There were at least 30 people present, so I met a lot of new people as well as received a few more movie suggestions that may help me with inspiration when I get stuck.  I'll see them again on Friday for our first NaNo write-in.

My GREs are now over.  I'm very happy with my scores, which means I can put most of my efforts into the novel rather than studying for a redo (although I may have to work on graduate school applications now, but we'll get to that later).  I went back to planning my novel.  Fortunately, I figured out some additional things I can do with Allie's life, and it also strengthened one of my characters in the process.  I seem to find that adding connections in my story is a positive thing.  Donald Maas recommended it in his book Writing the Breakout Novel, and I'm seeing that he was right.  I had hoped I would figured out a little more before November, but people have won this thing with much less planning than I've done.  None, even.  What I have now will have to be enough.  Wish me luck!

I can't believe that with two and half hours to go before November is here, I actually have butterflies.   


Thursday, October 25, 2012

Getting Ready for NaNoWriMo

Lunch break.  Thought I'd write something quick.

I feel like I've been talking about National Novel Writing Month for a while now.  I can't believe it is almost here!  I am pretty much terrified, so I've been trying to figure out how to prepare for it.  I'm surprised how many websites I have found online with tips.  I saw a few things I was already planning to do (let everyone know I am going to be much less available in November), but others I hadn't thought of (freeze meals for easy dinners).

Every single site I have found so far tells me I need to stock up on coffee.  Well, that's great, but I don't really like coffee.  Doomed.  I love the smell of it, but no matter how much cream and sugar I add I cannot get past the bitterness.  Luckily, there are lots of energy drinks available these days.  I'm not a big fan of those, either, but I'll try them out.  Or tea.  I think I once saw caffeinated gum at a gas station.

I have not had the chance to write lately.  I've tried a little more outlining to get me prepared for November, but I've got other things I need to work on, too.  I can only do so much and stay sane when I get home from work--granted writing can be fun, but it is still work.  I'm taking the GRE this Saturday evening.  This might sound strange, considering that I'm writing a novel, but I'm a little concerned about the Verbal section.  I bought a set of flashcards with the 500 most commonly used words, and I can't believe what I'm expected to know.  When on earth will I ever use some of these?  Sure, some are not too difficult to figure out (why would I ever use "pellucid" when "lucid" is a perfectly good synonym?), but others require pure, rote memory.  There are a good 100 words I'm not even bothering looking at.  I figure it'd be a waste of my time.

When I'm not preparing for the GRE, I'm debating with myself over the title of my novel.  I had something in my head for a while, but I realized that it had religious connotations to it.  I'd rather keep those out because I've got no such intentions for my book.  I don't even really have any explicit message in mind for my story.  I am writing it to entertain myself primarily, and others secondarily.  Either way, I need a freaking working title.  I started writing out all sorts of ideas and filled a sheet of paper with a combination of overdramatic, boring, and misleading titles.  My working title, for lack of any more inspiring ideas, may end up being A Second Life or something else that is super literal or prosaic (GRE word!)

I know I have not really written many updates lately.  I'm not sure my time will free up much in November.  Even if I do have time, I'm pretty sure I'll want to get away from computers.  Maybe I'll try to write just enough to get across my progress, but we'll see.

My plan as of now: invest in ear plugs; buy frozen dinners and coffee/tea/some random bad tasting, energizing crap; take a couple days after my GRE to refine my characters

And finally:  on Halloween night, at 11:59 pm, I will turn on my computer and write until I hit 1,667 words.  I want to start with a bang!

Friday, October 12, 2012

Hemingway experiment: write drunk, edit sober

I have decided to try a little experiment.  While Ernest Hemingway had a reputation for indulging in alcohol, he was also a brilliant author.  One of his famous quotes, "write drunk, edit sober," has always made sense in theory.  After all, the quality of the first draft does not matter.  You simply need to get something down.  Polishing comes later.  I have an issue with this, sometimes.  I find it too tempting to edit as I go, I get stuck on word choices, and sometimes I sensor things in my writing.  I thought I'd take his quote to a more literal interpretation.

I bought myself a bottle of Riesling wine, and have already made a dent in it.  Unfortunately this particular brand is a little too sweet (I should have looked that up ahead of time).  I anticipate that tomorrow morning when I have to hold a stand at the farmer's market to recruit families to do experiments, I will be nurturing  hangover.  Such is the price of writing.

I'm going to go on record, before I get too deep into this bottle, and say that I don't suggest that anyone who wants to write should drown themselves in alcohol for their craft.  I just thought this would be a fun experiment seeing as how I've got nothing else to do on a Friday night.  Also, I don't plan to get drunk so much as buzzed.

Here goes.
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Okay, so it is an hour and twenty minutes later..  I wrote about 1,300 words.  I'm not sure what I think of what I accomplished, and probably won't know until I'm fully sober.  Right now I think that, although I came up with a few good ideas, my writing isn't very 'pretty.'  It's looking fairly basic.  That doesn't really matter, because the point was to lower my inhibitions and just let myself write.  Still, I'm not convinced I couldn't have come up with these ideas while sober.  Normally I do come up with a few good ideas while writing, anyway.  Nor do I think I would have taken this scene down a notch without the alcohol.  Where is the benefit?

It was harder than I thought to write with a buzz, partially because I kept mistyping.  A couple times, I wrote an entirely wrong word that started with the same letter.  Plus it was tiring.  Unless I wanted to drink a hell of a lot to maintain this level, I knew I was bound to start to crash soon.  It's only 9:30 and I kind of want to go to bed.  Seriously?  My 21-year-old self would be ashamed.  But she also didn't have a full time job that meant waking up early to run experiments.

All in all, I'm not sure this is something to repeat.

Word count- 17327

Thursday, October 11, 2012

October delays, and a synopsis draft

October won't be filled with as much writing as I'd hoped.  I recently realized that, although I don't know for certain what I would do, I really am ready to leave my lab manager position behind.  The best thing I can think to do next is try going to grad school... if I can figure out what I would go for.  In order to leave the option for grad school open, I've been preparing to take a GRE later this month.  (Is it strange that I'm writing a novel and yet it is the verbal section I'm worried about?  I did grow up with a physics professor as a father, though.)  I really should do better and study to take the one in psychology, too... but I kind of hate the idea of studying for that when I'm trying to get ready for Nano.  This is discouraging, because it tells me a few things about my priorities for my future.  I would love to write for a living, but realistically I would not be able to support myself, so I need to pick a career.  This is where I turn into a whiner and start complaining about how I don't want to do that.  I really really really need to get serious and freaking pick a path.

Plus Jordan and I have finally gotten bicycles, so we've been riding them alllllll over town.

Since I can't write about having actually written... I've decided to release a draft of my synopsis.  It's a work in progress, but I guess I don't see the need to be quite as secretive anymore.

Initially, Allie Hepner thinks the hospital room she has been visiting every night is part of a dream.  As they return and grow longer she must face the possibility that she is not dreaming.  Rather, she is waking up in the life of Candice Waybright, a woman who was involved in a car wreck Allie caused a week prior.  She suddenly finds herself surrounded by Candice’s family and husband who believe she has retrograde amnesia.  As they teach her about Candice’s life and try to rebuild their relationships Allie must figure out whether the life she worked so hard for is everything she thought it was, and what happened to the real Candice Waybright.

My biggest problem right now is not knowing what to do with Allie's life.  I have all sorts of ideas about life as Candice.  I'm excited to write it and it is much more fun... but I need to figure out how to make life as Allie more interesting.  If not, I may have trouble trying to write 50k words for Nano.

I am trying to do as little traveling as possible in November, because I would love to have weekends to shut myself off to the world and write so I can stay on track.  The problem is, I've got plans for 2 weekends and plans for another undetermined weekend.  Something tells me I may used some of my paid time off days in November to make it work.

I do plan on doing virtually nothing else in November, though.  Sorry in advance if I turn down any invitations.



I'm still at about 16,000 words.  Ack.